Confessions from the Killer Mime Cult

I have just told Josh and my mom about the Pili situation. I'm a little nervous on both counts because Josh kind of freaked out the last time Pili and I had a fight and told me I should dump her. Maybe he was right, and I lacked the courage. But there was that convienent promise I made when I said that I would never leave her. 'Though your promise count for nothing, you must keep it nonetheless.' I'm nervous on account of my mom, just because she probably won't understand, or will freak out and cry and get in a huff and yet not offer any practical advice. I'm starting to think that it will be more difficult if Pili decides to stay with me. There's a lot of trust to repair, and I've been taken it as a forgone conclusion that she will go. So I will be really surprised. But I think it would make me happy, that she has decided that the life I wanted with her, that we wanted together has some worth.
And on the opposite side of the equation. Judit and I have been getting to know each other better. Nothing too serious, but I can see how that could develop into something more if the conditions are right, and we both want that. Of course, she lives in Hungary. Maybe I'll work in Hungary next year. She is very beautiful, and intelligent. The world continues to spin...